About lust and hope

I make up a new history to pretend I don't feel you. I ignore how much I miss you. I push the anxiety away and put the desire in my pocket. I dare to make fun of you.
But, to be honest, we can't go on denying the obvious for much longer. We can't fight the instincts nor cut the sex (that you desire and I need). I'd tell you a half-true and I'd yell to the world that I want you.
I just hope the wind takes this message from my heart to your smile.

About us - The Past and The Future

I don't know what's going on. I feel blue. I want everything I had before, and I don't see how to get it back. I want back my smile. I want back the satisfaction when I complete a task. I want back my friends, the feelings, the passion. Everything is so different now. Everything. And I keep on going back to the beggining. I keep on missing the way you used to look at me, and all the peace we used to feel when we were together. Oh, I wish you were here... I wish so many things. But all I really want is one more day to make you change your mind and don't leave these feelings behind.
Well, I see I always go back to the same point - I don't know how to say good-bye. I don't know when to say it's over. How can I turn it off? I don't know how to handle the fact that I need to leave behind all those magic moments, all those happy days. Why is everything changing? And then all I have it's the empty. The nothing. The no feeling. I got stuck between the past and the present. Between the things that are changing and my desire for them to stay the same. I know I need to get over it and move on. I have to learn how to look around and realize how all those past experiences made me who I am today.
It's just really hard to see that everything's fading away and everybody is so indefferent about it. It's hard to let it go, look ahead and wait for a future that I'm not sure about. Even though I have all the possibilities - to succeed, to be happy, to go on with my life... I still gonna miss this, and I still gonna miss us. At the end there's nothing but the silence, and maybe what we didn't say it's what it's gonna last forever.

About Friends and all

I know I'm not the best on choosing my boyfriends (you can tell by my past relantionships), but there's this one thing that I'm always thankful for, and that's my friends. My heart seems to recognize the best people in the world and I got to call them Friends. Just saying it.

Your love, babe

Because your hands are mine and my heart needs them.
Y-Our love is the most precious and beautiful thing that has happened to me.
It scares me sometimes. That's why I fight so much to keep it alive and to save it.
Protect us. Use your beautiful hands to pray and protect us while I work on my recovery from all the pain and the past that haunt me still.
I love you unending.

About love and more

I have sought love, first, because it brings ecstasy -- ecstasy so great that I would often have sacrificed all the rest of life for a few hours of this joy. I have sought it, next, because it relieves loneliness -- that terrible loneliness in which one shivering consciousness looks over the rim of the world into the cold unfathomable lifeless abyss. I have sought it, finally, because in the union of love I have seen, in a mystic miniature, the prefiguring vision of the heaven that saints and poets have imagined.
Bertrand Russell